panicparade
02 January 2020 @ 11:19 pm
Friending Policy:

Huzzah! There's no policy. I love making new friends! :)
If we've never interacted before just drop me a pm, even if it's just Hi! I can do the rest of the talking. Trust me, I'm warning you now, once I get comfortable with someone I do not shut up.

I'm also on tumblr | twitter | livejournal

Fics:
Almost all my fics (except for a few drabbles) can be found at Ao3.
I write and am active in three main fandoms - Bandom, MCU and Harry Potter.

Blanket Permision -
All my publically posted fics are up for grabs. You can create a podfic, remix, translate, write a sequel, create a fanart, fanmixe, etc., for any of my fanworks. All is ask is that you mention the original somewhere in the notes and send me a link of what you create so that I can flail over you. ♥

Bandom )
MCU )

 
 
panicparade
11 August 2015 @ 10:03 pm
Title: without you i'm nothing (at all)
Author: [personal profile] panicparade / [livejournal.com profile] bloodisshrp 
Rating: PG 13 
Pairings: Ryan/Brendon, Ryan/Pete, Ryan/Z/Alex, Jon/Spencer 
Word Count: 
Warnings:  Shameless Ryan Ross feels and use of Placebo lyrics. 
Author's Note: Just go with it. Written in an hour when I should clearly be studying! I just realised I hadn't written Bandom Fic in ages and I was listening to Placebo and just. I blame Placebo, they've inspired more fics than I can bother to count. Written within the past one hour, not beta read. 
 
 
panicparade
06 March 2015 @ 10:06 pm
I've been in a very DIY mood lately. Usually, I turn to arts & crafts when I need a break from RL and God knows I've needed a break lately. So I went back to my trusty friend Pinterest and Youtube to find some inspiration!! :D

[Fair warning  - I am no artist! I love trying though. :) ]

  Second thing I made! Warning : Failed paining attempt. :D  ) Next, I'm going to try everything in this video
 
 
Current Mood: artistic
 
 
panicparade
19 January 2015 @ 10:05 pm

I could use a hug. Or even a remedy for insomnia. Or both. <3 )
 
 
Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: Red - Hymn for the missing
 
 
panicparade
15 January 2015 @ 04:13 pm
Day 15

In your own space, create your own challenge. What’s something you want to see more people doing in fandom?


Ooh, what's something I want to see more people doing in fandom?

I would love to see more people add a public transformative works statement and post it on all their profiles - be it on Lj, Dw or tumblr. It's only through this years snowflake challenge that I've understood how much easier we make it for transformative works creators if we add a simple statement to our pages. ♥

Another thing that I would love to see more of this year, mostly from myself, is trying out new things - a new pairing, a new fandom, a new style of writing, a new POV! Anything! You never know what might catch your fancy! ♥

And last, though definitely not the least, more collaborations!! I personally would love to collaborate with someone this year on a project. :)  I think it would be great experience to learn something new and combine your style with somebody else's to create something. ♥ 
 
 
 
 
panicparade
14 January 2015 @ 09:15 pm
Day 13

In your own space, talk about a creator. Show us why you think they are amazing.

Day 14

In your own space, post recs for at least three fanworks that you did not create.

_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_
I'm combining Day 13 and 14 because it's really hard for me to choose just one creator. This way I can squee about some of my all time favorites and rec some fics! :D
[Warning: I'm not good at reccing or explaining why I like something.]

Fandom Wise Recs!

AVENGERS!

Satanssin

I am in love with her stories! They're all so incredibly detailed, the AU"s are so well crafted; the fics draw you in from the first word. I still remember, the first time I read Skin - I kept on reading till 5 am! ♥ (Short note: There might be certain errors - spelling, grammar etc, in the fics but it's negligible once you start reading and get lost in the story.)

Recs -

Skin
Human!AU | Thor/Loki | NC 17 | Read the warnings!

As far as first, second and third impressions go, Thor blundered them all.
He got drunk and danced on Loki's bar...
He kissed his husband....
He pretty much made himself fool of the year for Loki Laufeyson with no chance at redeeming himself.
Then Thor discovered something that made his insides freeze and his blood boil.
Loki was his.
They just didn't know it.

Warbride
Not Movie Canon | Slave!Loki| Thor/Loki | Mpreg | Warnings on Ao3

Captured in a war between the Aesir and Jotnar, Loki, the bastard son of King Laufey, is kept in the Aesir camp as someone to sate carnal desires.
And though he escapes unscathed later, it isn't the end of his problems.
For he is sold in political marriage to his very captor; a Jotun slayer.
He is ruthless and Loki is innocent.
It is a match made in Hel

furiedheart -

Her fics!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ There's a gripping plot, intense characters, UST and then hot smutty times!
Recs -


The Ghosts That Watch Us
Chris/Tom | Professors!AU | NC17 | The ending might be a little spooky

Tom is an art history professor at Brown University. Chris is the lacrosse coach. They start off on the wrong foot and hate each other for reals. And then Mexico happens.

But the Dust Never Settles when you're riding on the wind
Chris/Tom | Age Difference | Seriously, big age difference | Please read the warnings on Ao3.

Tom is seventeen years old. He starts a Pen-Pal correspondence with Chris, a thirty-six year old biker inmate at the prison who is scheduled to be released soon.


BANDOM!

softlyforgotten

All. Time. Favorite. Each and every single fic of softlyforgotten is a favorite of mine that I can reread countless times without getting tired. The characterization of Ryan is brilliant and perhaps what draws me to the fics so much; I have a soft spot as big as Hagrid for Ryan Ross. ♥ There are other things that draw me in too - dialogues, back story, UST!

Recs -

Adventures in Interstellar Commerce by  softlyforgotten &  provetheworst
Ryan Ross/Alex Greenwald | NC 17 | SPACE ADVENTURES! | Ryan needs a hug | Space Pirates!

Wherein our heroes, Messrs Greenwald and Ross, partake in a sweeping journey through space, fraught with peril and misunderstandings.
~~ Read it for the action, adventure, flaily!Ryan who practically gives himself to his kidnappers ~~

Walk The Line
Ryan Ross/Spencer Smith | Boys growing up | Boys who fail at talking | NC 17

Spencer and Ryan go on vacation.


herlovewasajoke

Honestly, I have only read one fic series by this author but that one fic series, 15 works, are right there at the top of my favorite fics list. I'm actually re-reading it these days. ♥ :)

Screaming Down the Starlit Sky
Brendon Urie/Ryan Ross, Jon Walker/Spencer Smith + Assorted other pairings | NC 17
Why this fic?
Vampires. There are vampires. It's a 255k, 15 fic series that expands on the vampire universe in the A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More "Touch Me". One of the things I loved the most was the politics and intrigue in the vampire, specifically Dandy, world. There have been loads of fics based on that video but very few have developed them further, or if they have, turned into something deep and filled with side plots and characters that are equally important and interesting. Like the Frank/Gerard track in this, even though we only get glimpses after Part 2, you keep wanting more, to know they're okay now. I loved the vampire psyche in this - ruthless and unapologetic, the constant power struggle drew me in, made me look for political machinations behind every action.

Oh God, there's so much more but I don't want to give away the plot. ♥

Not that the humans in the fic are scared of them, Ryan's constant power struggle with Brendon, his refusal to give in just because Brendon is a vampire, his demand for equal respect, that fact that he isn't at all attracted to Brendon just because he's a vampire - that's what made this such a joy to read. Ditto for Spencer!


HARRY POTTER!!

tessacrowley

Alpha/Beta/Omega. 'nuf said. :D I have a big weakness for A/B/O, without the feminisation of the omega!male and she does it so well. ♥


The Songbirds of Avebury Manor
Harry/Draco | NC 17 | Regency!AU | Alpha!Harry | Omega!Draco
Harry Potter presents as alpha at fifteen, and it is supposed to change his life for the better. Instead, it leads him to a beautiful noble omega he cannot have, a political plot he cannot escape, and a threat on his life.

Sins and Scars and Shattered Things
Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter | NC 17 | EWE |
Fifteen years have passed since the War, but the wizarding world isn't quite ready to forgive Draco Malfoy for his past sins, or for being in love with Harry Potter. For a former Death Eater who escaped conviction, it is a trial by fire.
-- Part 2 of Picking Up Pieces. I was in tears for Draco in this. ♥


anemonen

One of my favorite HP artists! She's amazingly talented and her art is just a delight to look at! ♥


Portrait Series
[ Link goes to the Masterlist ]

She's doing a portrait series these days and it's brilliant! Go leave some love!

Love and Communication
Harry/Draco | PG | Aurors! | Jealous!Harry | Comic | SO FLUFFY! | THE CAT!!

Harry’s jealous that Draco and Ron have got so close while working as Auror partners.




Aaaaand that's it. *phew* :D Oh my God! Editing on Dw is a pain!
 
 
 
 
panicparade
12 January 2015 @ 06:30 pm
Day 12


In your own space, talk about what you bring to fandom. It can be something tangible, or not.


My enthusiasm? Can I say that? :D I am enthusiastic, I just wish I showed it more.

 I love being a part of fandom and I'm unashamed to say that I have bombarded people with photos of bands and lured them into bandom. ♥  So yeah, I bring in more people! 

I also used to regularly post Panic! at the Disco fic recs on a reccing tumblr I had but then RL got in the way. I think I'm going to start again. :) 

 
 
Current Mood: awake
 
 
panicparade
12 January 2015 @ 01:54 pm
I've clearly fallen behind. :(

Day #10

Stretch yourself a little and try something new. Go play in a new fandom or with a new pairing. Try working in a new medium. Or check out some fanworks that are new to you. (The recs from Day 1 might be a good place to start!)


This one is sort of in progress - I'm trying something new but I have serious doubts as to whether it will work but also finished in a way as I've read tons of new things thanks to day 1, so I guess I can even say it's done. :)

Day #11

In your own space, post a rec for fannish and/or creative resources.



Oh, Geez, I'm rubbish at research, most of the times I try to skip it and hope no one notices the inconsistency in the fic. :( But when I do make an effort there's a few resources I constantly go back to

For Bandom, there is this most wonderful timeline by [livejournal.com profile] mizubyte . ♥ It's so detailed and brilliant! There's also Fanlore that I refer to. 

And that's it.  Hopefully I can gather more resources by browsing through everybody's comments! :) 


 
 
panicparade
11 January 2015 @ 09:03 pm
Erised reveals are here, I can claim my fic! ♥

Title: Days Before You Came
Author: [personal profile] panicparade
Recipient: [livejournal.com profile] nia_kantorka
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: ~5,500
Warnings: None
Summary: Ten days before the end of his Eighth year at Hogwarts is when Harry realises that he probably, maybe, loves Draco Malfoy.
Disclaimer: All Harry Potter characters herein are the property of J.K. Rowling and Bloomsbury/Scholastic. No copyright infringement is intended.

This was not the fic I planned on writing, that fic is still half finished in my WIP folder. :D I spent two months trying to get that fic to finish, or even show me where it's going, but I finally had to give up and start from scratch. So I went back to Nia's sign up post, only to fall in love with one of her prompts -


Harry and Draco have a secret affair during their 8th year at Hogwarts. Both fell hard for each other but –of course- don’t acknowledge it to themselves/don’t want to show it/don’t talk about it and create a real mess by doing so.



And it's so Harry & Draco to me for them to be in a relationship and not talk about it. I've actually had the first line of the fic, "Ten days before the end of his Eighth year at Hogwarts is when Harry realises that he probably, maybe, loves Draco Malfoy." in my head for a long time, I just couldn't find a fic where I could use it. It ended up forming the basis for the entire fic. :D

I can't thank this_bloody_cat enough for being my brainstorming buddy and helping me get this into shape by asking all the right questions and being so supportive! *hugs* ♥ Love and hugs for [personal profile] digthewriter, who fixes all the silly mistakes I keep making and turns the fic into something that can be read. ♥

I'm a little overwhelmed by the lovely comments and kudos this fic has received.

I also didn't mention it in the original A/N but the title is a song by Placebo!
 
 
Current Mood: sick
 
 
panicparade
09 January 2015 @ 10:37 pm
Day 9

In your own space, talk about what surprises you about fandom. It could be a pairing or fandom you never thought you'd like. A fanwork type you never knew existed.


Fandom continues to keep surprising me in it's own little way quite regularly. ♥ The welcoming people. the amazing talent, the support - all of it surprised me when I joined and started actively taking part. I'm still in awe sometimes that I get to be a part of this and participate! I've gotten to meet and talk to so many wonderful people because of this and I'm positive it will never not surprise me. 

But I've learned something new during the [community profile] snowflake_challenge that has reinforced for me just how awesome fandom is. ♥

I had no idea that there were so many different kinds of fanworks! I used to think there was just fanfiction and fanart. *headdesk* 

The challenge on Day 3 (Creative Process) was specially eye opening! I had no idea, none at all, that creating a podfic took so much effort and time and patience. Or that creating fanart took careful planning and plotting. :)  

Then there's also fanmixes, fanvids, pdfs, meta-posts, rec lists, fan comics, role plays, papercraft, banners, icons, picspams, cosplay, textiles &fabric work - dolls, embroidery, crochet! 

^Incredible, right? Fandom truly is amazing! ♥ ♥ ♥ 

Also, if you're reading and have some time please go drop off some love for all the brave and incredible people who did the Love Meme. Thanks! :) *hugs* 
 
 
Current Mood: lethargic
 
 
panicparade
07 January 2015 @ 08:36 pm
Day 7

In your own space, share your love for a trope, cliché, kink, motif, or theme. (More than one is okay, too.) Tell us about it, tell us why you love it, give us some examples and recs. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it.


Tropes, kinks and recs )
 
 
Current Mood: cold
 
 
panicparade
07 January 2015 @ 12:10 am

Day 6

In your own space, create a fanwork. A drabble, a ficlet, a podfic, or an icon, art or meta or a rec list. A picspam. Something.


in the cave (that way my home)
[Ryan Ross | Gen | 200 ]
[Purely indulgent writing because I had Ryan Ross feels.]

 

 
 
Current Mood: sleepy
 
 
panicparade
05 January 2015 @ 02:21 pm
Day 5

In your own space, talk about your fannish origin story. How did you come to fandom, why did you choose your fannish name, do you have more than one secret identity?


Ooh, I have a feeling this will be long. :D


Once upon a time . . . )[Bad username or site: . @ livejournal.com]
 
 
Current Mood: aggravated
 
 
panicparade
04 January 2015 @ 07:56 pm
Day Four


Comment to someone you haven't ever interacted with before or introduce yourself to someone you've interacted with and friend/follow them. Afterwards, leave a comment in this post with the equivalent of "I did it!"

It doesn't have to be anything complex - it can be feedback for a fanwork or discussing something you might have in common or even simply admiring their icon. The point is to reach out to someone you normally wouldn't and connect with them, even if it's only for the briefest moment.


I really like today's challenge! ♥

I'm pretty sure that there are more like me in fandom who would love to make new friends but are too shy to reach out and say hi. I get really anxious at the thought of leaving comments at someone's journal - what if I say something stupid? What if I'm saying something irrelevant and have nothing to add?

It is really terrifying when you're new and you're trying to find your footing and everyone around you already seems to know each other, it's kind of intimidating. But the thing I've learnt over the past year that I've tried to be a little active is that fandom is so so welcoming and no one is ever made to feel like an outsider, at least if you're trying to reach out and meet new people. 

I've spent years lurking and it's very easy to read something nice, a post or a comment, and then think, "Oh, I would love to say something here," but to never do so.

To break out of that habit I'm going to make a new resolution for 2015 -  to leave at least one comment per day. 

It could be on Ao3, on a generic post, anywhere. And it might seem like nothing right now, one per day might seem really less, but hey, at least for me that's a start!   ♥  :) 

 
 
 
 
panicparade
03 January 2015 @ 08:50 pm
Day 3

In your own space, talk about your creative process - from what inspires you to what motivates you to how you manage to break through blocks. Does your process change depending on the type of creating you're doing?



Hmm, I've never really thought about this before.

*ponders*

I like to ramble. :| I wish I could say it was genetic but . . . )


/tl;dr/

Music inspires me and I like to work on things I find intriguing - prompts, crafts, whatever. :) And I guess my process does stay the same, no matter what sort of creating I'm doing. 
 
 
Current Mood: bored
 
 
panicparade
02 January 2015 @ 12:26 pm
Day 2 In your own space, create a list of at least three fannish things you'd love to receive, something you've wanted but were afraid to ask for - a fannish wish-list of sorts. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your wish-list if you feel comfortable doing so. Maybe someone will grant a wish. Check out other people's posts. Maybe you will grant a wish. If any wishes are granted, we'd love it if you link them to this post.
Gifts! )
 
 
Current Mood: accomplished
 
 
panicparade
01 January 2015 @ 02:27 pm
Day 1

In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you have created. It can be your favorite fanworks that you've created, or fanworks you feel no one ever saw, or fanworks you say would define you as a creator. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.



3 fic recs )
 
 
Current Mood: nostalgic
Current Music: Cue The Pulse to Begin
 
 
panicparade
27 March 2014 @ 10:04 pm
 

[community profile] unconventionalcourtship 
I've been waiting for this fest since last year! <3
GAH! If only I didn't have 5 fics to write. Including HarryBang. 
*sobs*
 
 
 
 
panicparade
04 January 2014 @ 10:33 pm
 
[community profile] trope_bingo  is back for Round 3!! WooHoo!
Go sign up and grab a card!

 

Head over to Dreamwidth and grab a card
here.